A PAIN THAT I´M USED TO

I'm not sure what I'm looking for anymore
I just know that I'm harder to console
I don't see who I'm trying to be instead of me
But the key is a question of control

Can you say what you're trying to play anyway
I just pay while you're breaking all the rules
All the signs that I find have been underlined
Devils thrive on the drive that is fueled

All this running around, well it's getting me down
Just give me a pain that I'm used to
I don't need to believe all the dreams you conceive
You just need to achieve something that rings true

There's a hole in your soul like an animal
With no conscience, repentance, oh no
Close your eyes, pay the price for your paradise
Devils feed on the seeds of the soul

I can't conceal what I feel, what I know is real
No mistaking the faking, I care
With a prayer in the air I will leave it there
On a note full of hope not despair

All this running around, well it's getting me down
Just give me a pain that I'm used to
I don't need to believe all the dreams you conceive
You just need to achieve something that rings true

All this running around, well it's getting me down
Just give me a pain that I'm used to
I don't need to believe all the dreams you conceive
You just need to achieve something that rings true

LOVE, IN ITSELF

All of these insurmountable tasks

that lay before me

all of the firsts

and the definite lasts

that lay in store for me

there was a time

when all on my mind was love

now i find

that most of the time

love's not enough

in itself

consequently

i've a tendency

to be unhappy, you see

the thoughts in my head

all the words that were said

all the blues and the reds

get to me

all of the absurdities

that lay before us

all of the doubts

and the uncertainties

that lay in store for us